Poisons and Cure

I was in the middle of my sleep this morning. Really. When someone are talking even when you're still sleeping, you will hear them out LOUD right ? and you just ignore it because sleep is much pure beautiful than gossips aren't they ? well, Back it off and just get back to the point .I heard something annoying clinging on my ears and heart like damn damn damn and i was like ..shut the fuck up..! can't you see i'm sleeping and i'm hearing you say my name at the same time ? Yeah !Someone's talking about me . i mean not a good one . yeah !Not too bad too ...Really ! -.-"

I put it aside because i'm having a very strong relationship with my sleep . So who the hell cares? Yeah my mum and grandma's saying that i always plugged all the electricity on and never turn it off right back . And guess what ? for a girl like me, its normal apa ! don't say that they never do that ! Im watching! well. i always been distract by those abnormal thought .So..where are we?

Okay..then i wake up .. having a bath .. Cooking some food for my grandma and that's it . I got no more thing's to do that evening. And i was like boooringg!Just wonder , a girl like me who used to wake up early in the morning, going to class like non-stop ? and get back home about half an hour, then go back to campus for another class and then another class some more ..And only get rest in the night . Now i have to sit .. watching the grass grow and do nothing ? How could my schedule changed so mean ?so..i decided to take out my sister's cars to have a ride to nowhere . I drive ..and i was looking around . That evening was beautiful . Warm and peace . No traffic jam . No accident . And the most important, no more rempitttt there .

So.. i was wondering . What is it that i want to reach some more in my life ? One thing ! Only one thing .. love from ALLAH . i'm in bliss while im having a good relationship with ALLAH . And always having trouble whenever i was geting far from ALLAH .. I hope i will be a better moslem one day . One Fine day :)

With heart

I've been living in this world for 22 years . There are a lots of upside down that i've been facing on.I found a lots of beautiful things that may giving me bliss . And i'll be thankful for that . But as the grass are green and the roses are red . I can see a lot of thing despite i was in it,i am really wondering why it should happen .

First i saw a guy with same directed minded. I don't say all of them . But majority of them are these type . I am a very observant person . All of the thing's around me will be the things that i look deeply while thinking about it .If there's a sexy picture of a female which was really interesting , something like random talent with beautiful skin, skinny body and big boobs . Wearing something tiny and hot..i don't care if that guy is the committee of mosque or a good nerdy guy .. they will be unite as one particular group .Commenting , liking and talk about it like FOREVER ? .. and i'm kinda feel awkward to read them all. Does the girl which represent the picture feeling anything about it ? Nothing ?? Seriously ??

Bliss In Blergh

Aku belejar banyak tentang hidup.

Kejap kita ada kat atas. Kejap kita ada kat bawah.

Benda dalam dunia ni kalau kita ikut flow betul2 semua pun boleh handle

tapi kalau semua benda kita nak negative

Susah la nak survive

Keluh

satu fakta, dua penipuan
yang pertama kita ambil, dua buang
kenapa mengeluh? -.-"
dengar cerita lagi, dah jenuh berkali-kali
komplikasi dalam komunikasi jadi konfrontasi
mulut orang perosak reputasi, pembunuh motivasi
mereka pakar fabrikasi, modifikasi
di depan senyum, belakang dengki
yang cemburu mungkin teman kita sendiri
siapa tahu?
peduli, kita dah semuanya bersama
dah senang bersama, dah susah pun bersama
ketawa bersama, menangis bersama
ku bersumpah harap kita mati pun bersama
ke akhirnya :)

I'm screwed !

As we grow up, we learn that the one person that was never supposed to let us down probably will. You’ll have your heart broken, and you’ll break others hearts. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them and you’ll forget that time is flying by. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, and no second chances. You just have to live your life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you, and tell someone off. Speak out, be sincere and say it with conviction. And never forget where you cam from, cause when you do.. It’s a long way home..

MEMORIES .

There are song, there are are complaints

There are stories, there are words.

Words are forgotten .

Memories are remembered :)

These memories come after the departure of a sweetheart.

Memories..

if there is a bond, it let go,

if there's a mirror, it breaks.

we are all in difficulty 

this feeling is in the heart .

In the world,all of us are victim of memories.

some joy..a little sadness.

those are from us..and us are from those .

sweet memories.. bad memories ..

we are all in a hug of memories .

New loife

I had a new life . New BFF . New bf (new ke?) dan New Home(sem depan laa) :) 

aku happy overdose ngan hidup aku yang kian lengkap . 

Ramai yang lengkapkan aku sekarang n aku rasa bertuah cuz aku dikelilingi oleh charlie's angels.

Ishfaq.. my beloved boyfriend .

Ann , Tiqah , Azie , Deba , Farra . My new bff ..

Walaupun kami agak spastik sebab selalu ketawa terbahak-bahak2 .

Makan ketawa . Borak ketawa . Lepak ketawa . Buat mende-mende semua nak ketawa .

Tapi at least kitorang happy togather .

kitorang selalu story mory masalah kitorang . sedih ketawa semua sama-sama 

memang best la kan ade diorang nie.

Dear Mr Beautiful

Dear Beautiful boyfriend,

i love you much . i don't know how to express this by word.

But at least you can see i'm trying.

I LOVE YOU WILL FULL OF MY HEART .

i will never find another you .

You're too perfect for me .

Love,

Your Girlfriend

Abnormal

Aku balik-balik rumah yang sepi nan nyaman ni.. First2 benda nak buat mesti mengadap laptop. Aku rase aku ade penyakit spastik Internet

Online punye online..aku ternampak la tweet budak tersebut ( xleh sebut nama..bahaye) . Dia cam tweet cam sound2 aku or budak rumah aku . Kitorang like WHAT THE EFFF ??

tapi kitorang buat2 rileks sebab xde name kitorang . Terasa buat ape ? Feeling2 artis gittew !

Tapi permasalahannye disini, die dah ajak die punye kekasih hidup mati campur urusan ni.

So bf die duk la tweet2 maki 

plus siap ugut2 nak jatuhkan one of us lagi u'ollss !! 

Siap hantar msg kat scandal one of us to.. and ugut nak bgtahu bad thing about one of us tu

euwwww..have a dick x kau mat ? are you sure you are a guy?

cam nyahhhhhhhhh ye perangai

selekey la lu bro

cube la jantan skit..hal perempuan tak payah la masuk campur doe

Tajuk sebuah cerita

Entah apa yang aku rasakan kini . Aku tak pasti 

Terlalu Banyak benda yang ganggu fikiran aku.

Aku masih xfaham situasi diri aku sekarang

Entah apa yang betul

Entah apa yang tidak.

Tindak tanduk aku..

aku kurang pasti sahihnya .

aku hanya mampu berdoa apa yang jadi ni semua ada hikmahnya .

Aku harap tuhan ada disisi aku selalu.

Kerana hanya DIA mampu menguatkan aku .

Amin .

He send me this :')

After he stabbed,kill and throw my love away, he pick em back, find me and hoping for my love.

He always been like this .

He makes me feel really sad hearing this song .

Because it was too late

I'm with another him right now :')

Thanks bro for the song..

Who the HECK are you ?

harini again aku dapat surat cinta . It was soooo annoying yang aku xtahu siapa kau dan kau xhabis2 hantar surat cinta pada aku ! Deym GIRL !

Stop doing this la bitches . It was my 3rd sem already kot ! kau buat macamni dari aku 1st sem..xpenat ke ? N FYI..aku mmg da xkawan ngan BELIAU yang engkau maksudkan ..Aku pun memang da xde keepin Touch dah dengan Adam or who-so-ever ...and i TOLD YOU..Aku n afiq mmg xde pape..so who the fuck are you ?Please la grow up doe




N For those who xtahu cerita..this is the beginning of the story..see the date.. Lama dah..from my 1st sem lagi sebenarnye..

ok penat nk story benda same..bace n fahami sendiri. Goodluck n SEKIAN :)

Crying day

Tears had become the best friend of mine since i was a lil kid . Always be there when i was sad . Always accompany me . Always makes me feel better when i have em . I really need to cry because i need my bestfriend to calm me down . Tears, you're such a good medicine .

today i was crying and crying and cried again ..its so upset to set myself as an idiot. Whats love stands for ? do i really understand ? then why should i get involved in it if im not  sure what it really was..?i had a very tough memory in love since i was a kid. Howcome a girl like me could face all of those shit bravely ? Im so proud of myself . I just dont want to get involved in it anymore .. No more ! Im pathetic. Psycho. Sad and unwanted . Really :'( Go away. I look ugly when i was crying.

Moody day

Today was sucks . Really i don't lie to you . Aku tak tau la sebenarnye die nak aku jadi macamane lagi. Aku dah cukup cuba dah. Sumpah aku dah sungguh2 cuba jadi baik dengan dia. Berubah untuk dia. Dah xnak malukan dia lagi. Aku tak tau apa lagi yang dia xpuas dengan aku .Aku xfaham laa..aku rase die xsuka kot kat aku ni. Dia memang anggap aku ni xpernah wujud dalam hidup dia kot.. Aku sampai da xtau kenapa aku dilayan macamni .


Terasa diri serupa anjing .

Enlighten me

Dear bastards all around my ass,

Who ask you to always take care of me ? I'd never asked you to look at me everyday,worrying on what i do . Who the fuck are you to do that ? You're not my bloody mom . So get the fuck out from my life ass whole . Why you keep on bitching around me ? Why you're so sick of the way i live ? I dont even know your full name . Its not important at all. For me you're just a piece of meat .Go get your life .I don't give a fuck if you want to spread all of those sarcastic gossips . But hey,look at yourself . Do you pretty enough to tell hoe bout me ? You better watch out soon ! If you're not backing off,im going to get you i warn you . I'd done in silent .

Ternampak diri aku depan cermin buat aku rase macam nak terjun tingkat 12 wisma bunga je . Dah macam boboy maharajalawak kuasa 2 .Walaupun tidak segemuk bob kuman dan perempuan cun yang mengandung 9 bulan 10 hari,,namun aku terasa seperti Gila gemok dan tidak mampu mentafsirkan lagi betapa hancur hati melihat badan yang membesar dengan begitu kejam. Kalau la ada lelaki lalu-lalu tepi aku , aku pasti mereka akan mengherdik dalam hati " gemuknye minah ni " . Walaupun aku xdapat nak punch semua muka muka mereka yang memandang sinis,tapi aku hanya mampu menyumpah seranah dalam hati "macam kau hensem pulak nak cakap aku gemok" . Walaupun belum pasti mereka mengutuk,namun aku memang seorang yang berfikiran negatif,jadi nasib dialah kena kutuk dalam hati aku.Siapa suruh mereka lalu-lalu tepi aku semasa moral aku down dengan badan yang kian gebu.Selalu aku lihat gadis berbadan cantik,slim shady bak maria mercedes..makan dengan banyak . Dan kemudiannya badan dia tetap kurus sebegitu . Ah. dunia ini begitu zalim sekali ye anak-anak!

Aku mula naik i-so-shake-to-shape yang dibeli oleh abahku untuk emakku beberapa lama dulu. Namun entah la.. rasanya bukan semakin kurus..malah semakin menebal pulak badan aku yang sedia ada tebal ni . Usah la persoalkan berapa banyak yang aku makan. benda itu terlalu sensitif untuk aku jawab . Cukup lah sekadar aku memberitahu aku makan lebih kurang 4 kali sehari ,belum lagi termasuk jajan-jajan dan makanan sampingan :) . Aku bahagia sebegitu rupa .Seperti dunia ini sentiasa ungu dan biru..Aku pandang langit sangat cantik dan cerah . Matahari seolah-olah senyum kepadaku setiap kali aku makan dengan banyaknya. Wahh.. Jadi tidak hairan lah kalau aku gemuk . Ini semua salah makanan. Mereka terlalu menarik untuk aku ,Aku juga mula membeli jamu jamu untuk menguruskan badan namun segalanya kelihatan seperti tidak mampu melawan badan aku yang sudah gah melawan produk2 menguruskan badan . Oh tidak .

Ya a'ow !

Damn it

We mess around together,i know you in and out.Your sympathetic shit may work on others but not me.Im done saving your ass, im done making excuses for you. Dont you fucking blame everything on me,you're the one who made me the person i am today.Dont you dare say im not a good friend.I was there for you from the very beginning,but you.. you were never there for me.I dont need someone who doesnt need me. toodles. Good luck in finding someone like me.

Take note

Semester 3

Well..pejam celik pejam celik i'm done with sem 1 & 2 .Hahaha.. now..im going to be 3rd sem student , whoaaa.... cam xcaye secepat ini uolls . haha.

sem 1 result aku agak tergelabah beruk sikit.. sem 2 ni alhamdulillah naik jugak la dari sem lepas :) ngee ~!! so.. sem depan rasenye lg susa kott.. sbb ade subject AMAB & MICRO yang aku paling menyampah tahap gaban tu . Aku kan lau bab mengira2 ni aku lemah skit.. so agak risau juga la disitu kan . hmm...

So have a blast . Asalamuallaikum :)))